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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

unconscious mutterings:

Right now:: heartbroken
Halloween:: Samhain
Provider:: merciful
Rescue me:: from ourselves
Confidence:: shattered
Fungus:: infection
Candy corn:: Pilgrim hat
Reunion:: homecoming
Winner:: takes all
Tradition:: bellwether

i have no idea where that last one came from. and the candy corn one, i think, is from the shape. but honestly, the brain is pudding today.

:: scribbled at 3:19 PM ... ... o

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lyrics heard on the radio this morning on the drive in sum up how i'm feeling today.

Even though I know
I don’t want to know
Yeah I guess I know
I just hate how it sounds

- One Thing, Finger Eleven

things that are good today: one of the other mothers had a coffee waiting for me at the library. i got a big hug from Little Small. The Dane loves me. it's bright and sunny, and the leaves are pretty. those are the things i'm holding on to right now, because i need that.

i feel like i didn't do enough. if the probable result of the national election, after counts and recounts, is enough to leave me in tears, then i should have done more to help create a different outcome. and since 'should have' doesn't amount to much, it becomes 'will do'. after a few days to regroup, i'm going to find a way to get involved, hands on, in local politics. jen makes a good point about poll workers, and i think i'll investigate that, as well.

feh.

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Tuesday, November 2, 2004

i'm keeping my fingers crossed - and voting.

the lines at the polling places - down the block, around the corner, people reading papers and sipping coffee, patiently waiting their turn to vote - gave me a lift this morning. i'm really hoping...

so i stopped by Little Small's school this morning to drop off some coffeecake for the Election Day bake sale. and on the way out, i was stopped by a very earnest young girl with a clipboard, who was working on a math badge. they were collecting statistics in an exit poll to use in their project. she was so intent on getting thru her speech that by the time she took a breath and i could get a word in edgewise, i felt badly about telling her that this wasn't where i voted. good on her and her troop for getting out there and being involved in some way, says i. the more we learn about and participate in our electoral system, in whatever way, the better off we'll all be. i hope she grows up to be just as involved as an adult.

thank god for Jon Stewart - that may be the only coverage i'm able to watch tonight, because this election, and the potential outcome, scares the crap out of me. i've come close to crying a few times today, it scares me that much. ohpleaseohpleaseohplease don't let it be another four years of that nutbag, who will have even less reason to reign in his nut-jobiness if there's no reappointment to consider.

random bit, completely unrelated to the election: i must have still had Halloween on the brain yesterday morning, because i was convinced, driving in, that the fellow in front of me in the old school Detroit steel behemoth was Robert Englund. yeah, i don't get that either.

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Monday** Madness:

Do you.....

1. Code your own website or use a template?

i've done a few designs, if you use the term loosely. actually, i was quite proud of a few of them. and there's one image-free cinnamon colored one that i may go back to at some point, just for the clutter free-ness of it. but by and large, i am grateful to the generosity of real designers.

2. Use a digital camera or a film camera? If digital, do you print your own pictures, order them online, or send them out?

digital, mostly, now, altho i still have a decent film camera. haven't printed out any of the digipics yet; i'm thinking about investigating a home printer, since they're becoming more and more reasonable.

3. Make your own cards or buy them at a card shop?

oh, i went thru a whole Martha Stewart phase of printing up my own holiday cards, and making paper, and ... yadayadayada. as you may have guessed, that phase is well past gone. i do prefer to buy cards at small local or art shops.

4. Draw your own graphics or get them from the internet?

see #1.

5. Take showers or baths?

yes. i don't indulge in long, steamy scented baths nearly as often, because ... well, i was going to blame schedule, but really, i should just plan to do that more often.

6. Make your own candles or buy them? And are they soy or paraffin?

buy, altho i'd like to take a hand at making them at least once. generally, soy or at least non-commercial brands.

7. Celebrate Halloween or not?

if by 'celebrate', you mean 'stay up late making cupcakes, get up early to frost, decorate and deliver cupcakes, and make sure the house is stocked with neat candies for little ghosts and ghoulies', then yes. we didn't make it out to 'celebrate' as in 'go catch a band or go to a party'. ye gods, i'm sounding old. ;)

8. Sleep in on weekends or get up early even if you don't have to go to work?

oh, if i could sleep in... challenging when a 6 year old bundle of energy is ready for his breakfast at 8 am.

9. Correct other people's grammar, or just let it go?

let it go, more often than not. i used to be horrifically bad about correcting everyone, all the time. this only accomplished one thing: irritating everyone within earshot. so, not so much now. (i'm sure i mutter under my breath more than i realize.)

** yes, yes, i know. it's Tuesday. i'm working on the theory that it's better to jump in where you are than to feel perpetually behind. ;) and nuts to blogger, which ate the first version of this and made me type it all out again. :p

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Sunday, October 31, 2004





happy Halloween, and blessed Samhain to those who observe!

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