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Saturday, September 18, 2004

random rainy day notes...

the rain certainly is here, and lots of it. it has almost a meditative quality, coming down steadily, straight down in drops large enough to draw lines in the air. fortunately, the arrival of the rain, while it squelches a few plans, does mean the migraine is eased up.

i always thought my grandmother was joking when she referred to her head as a barometer. now, not so funny. i know just what she means. the Cap'n, in fact, has deferred to the head barometer once or twice, as he had no interest in getting caught out on the boat.

much lethargy today, or, at least, not a whole lot of purpose. i'm going to try to get one or two chores done today, because a clean sparkly tub makes me happy. but mostly, it'll be about puttering. and maybe Fuse Beads. i hear they're fun.

mostly, i'm trying to regear for next week. the ex-wife has been increasingly wacko this week, and while i understand that she's under stress, i still don't think that screaming fits are appropriate adult behavior. and with the school year started, there are more "opportunities" for her to direct that at me. logically, i know my reaction: tell her to call when she's calm, and walk away. emotionally, it's like i'm waiting to be hit in the gut every morning.

mmmm. lalalalala... scrub tubs, play with Little Small and Fuse Beads, and take naps. lalalala.... and maybe hot cocoa later, as it's a dampish sort of day.

:: scribbled at 11:13 AM ... ... o

Friday, September 17, 2004


splitting headache today, and all i wanted to do when i got in the car to come to work was cry. some mornings, it takes all my energy not to fly into a million pieces, but to stay calm instead.

on the upside, it's Friday, it's hazy sunny, and i got a spiffing new haircut (after letting my hair draggle for a few months).

also, unrelated: i've commented out my blogroll for a bit, as they appear to be going a little wonky with their latest server upgrade. so if i usually link to you there - still love you! and links will reappear soonish. :)

tonight, i think, will be popcorn and movies. silliness is in order, for all three of us, myself, The Dane, and Little Small, after a longish week.

:: scribbled at 2:45 PM ... ... o

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

to my way of thinking, i believe that each person that comes into your life does so for a reason. the reason may not be obvious, but there is one.

i've probably talked a little bit about that before; generally, it's in the face of some great upheaval. i don't always take the time to look at the relationships that are working, so tonight i made the time and thanked The Dane. he and Little Small are teaching me quite a bit about how to love, and how to care.

and oddly, i'm beginning to see that there's even a purpose for the ex wife.

The only thing
constant in the world
is change
that is why
every day I take life as it comes.

- I. Simpson

i suspect that she has appeared on my horizon at a time when i've become too set in my ways. from her, i can learn patience and flexibility. i don't have to be friends with her, i don't have to like her, but i do need to find a way to accomodate her presence. if i learn patience, i can step back and not feel the need to react to perceived hurt or insult. i can take seven breaths, look at the situation for what it may be, and then answer. if i learn flexibility, i can see more options, and have more ways to answer. Little Small has been especially helpful (altho he doesn't know it) in reminding me that there are many ways to see a situation, and not all of them fit in small, square boxes. some of them are wisteria colored squiggles.

patience, flexibility and seven breaths.

:: scribbled at 9:12 PM ... ... o

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

unconscious mutterings:

Self-esteem:: fragile
Migraine:: torture
Phoebe:: Cates
Nervous:: Nelly
Punctual:: proper
Liver damage:: W. C. Fields
Legal disclaimer:: fine print
Reverend:: Higgins
Supple:: skin tone
Binder:: school

:: scribbled at 7:30 AM ... ... o

Monday, September 13, 2004

thanks to MTLRYKWYA* for the kind comments on the new (to me) layout.

bs gave a call and wanted to know all the nitty gritty details on the photo. being a camera/design tyro, i'll point you to Cordelia's article over at Graphic Goo where she describes her sources and methods. (follow thru to the photo, and click on the EXIF link under the image to get all the info on camera, aperture, etc.) i'd love to hear from others the pros and cons of the new format; easier to read? miss the old font? don't give a fig one way or the other? comments are open. ;)

speaking of comments: yes, email is now required. i had someone harass me in comments recently, and they were too shy (!) to leave an email so we could continue the discussion. hence, email now required. but, since several of MTLRYKWYA have expressed well-founded anti-spam concern, i'm now hiding email addresses from the general populace. it's still required, but will only be visible to me as admin of the comments. hopefully you see why i put the requirement in place, and hopefully masking the info speaks to your concerns, as well. because i certainly want MTLRYKWYA to be happy. :)

My Three Loyal Readers - You Know Who You Are. ;)

eta: i may have hosed up the comment layout... if so, i'll try to get it fixed later tonight. apologies in advance.

eta #2: well, maybe it's just a provider issue... nobody's haloscan comments are appearing at the moment. hopefully they'll be back soon.

eta #3: .... aaaaand they're back. comment away, everyone. :)

:: scribbled at 3:15 PM ... ... o

Strengthen The Good is currently highlighting:

The Brent Woodall Foundation for Exceptional Children, a nonprofit dedicated to helping children with autism and their parents. there's a great article over at STG explaining the selection of The Brent Woodall Foundation; i'll just add that i like the mission to help the kids achieve excellence, and the inclusion of tools for the parents in the curriculum. addressing the family as a whole seems a powerful way to help build the necessary structure for the children they help.

STG, if you haven't heard of it yet, is looking to harness the amazing power of our internet communities and voices to help micro-charities, a dollar at a time. the organizations STG highlights really will benefit from $1 or $5.

if you'd like to donate, head on over to the The Brent Woodall Foundation for Exceptional Children (they can take checks), or over to Strengthen The Good, which will coordinate a donation if you'd prefer to donate online.

:: scribbled at 1:20 PM ... ... o

alright, my wise and learned trivia hound readers - who was it that said it's a good idea to believe five impossible things before breakfast?

:: scribbled at 8:29 AM ... ... o