Friday, January 3, 2003
okay, so i don't usually get all schmoopie. but perhaps you will forgive me for this, considering the late hour.
i feel like the luckiest girl on the face of the earth. i want to explain why this feels like the greatest gift, but the context... oh, the words are eluding me. so let's 86 the backstory and get to the punchline.
The Dane and i were lying in bed this past weekend, and out of his mouth fell Those Three Words. he said he loved me. and he must have heard my jaw hit the floor (nice trick when you're lying down), because he looked over at me and repeated it. 'i love you.'
*deep breath* wow. i cannot even begin to describe to you how this makes me feel. okay, lemme throw a few words out there: lucky. cherished. blessed. amazed.
and the sweetest thing? since those words fell out of his mouth, he hasn't been able to stop saying it. and he *apologized* at one point. 'i'm sure you must be tired of me saying that, baby.' nooooo. no. not tired of hearing it, not one bit. i am thrilled and amazed and grateful all over again, every time i hear him tell me that he cares for me.
fine, fine! it's only been a week, i hear you saying. but. but i don't think i'll ever get tired of hearing those three words. not from someone whom i love, deeply and truly.
this is a fine way to start a new year, i think. :)
1:57 AM ...
it feels like Thursday, since i'm still up; but technically, it's Friday. hence, the friday five
1. Do you wear any jewelry? What kind?
i have a penchant for rings. i have a lot of them. generally, i only wear one at a time. always, earrings and a watch. occasionally, a necklace. i went thru an unfortunate phase with pins. but i'm all better now. really. ;)
2. How often do you wear it?
earrings and watch every day. the earrings i don't think about much; they're there. the watch i would feel lost without.
3. Do you have any piercings? If so, where?
three in each ear. two in the left earlobe, three in the right earlobe, one on the top of my left ear. there really aren't any other parts of my body meant to meet metal.
4. Do you have any tattoos? If so, where?
not yet. i'm still working on the design for my first tattoo. it's likely going to be a 40th birthday present, as anything that's going to sag will have by then, so i can pick a good spot for it. i'm thinking it'll go on my left shoulderblade, or maybe the base of my spine. or one in each spot.
5. What are your plans for the weekend?
Saturday is all about sleeping in and catching up on house stuff. Sunday is anyone's guess, altho it will almost certainly involve plans with The Dane. boring, eh? ;) but it makes me happy to have a little down time after the holidays.
1:25 AM ...
Thursday, January 2, 2003
courtesy of dave, The Thursday Thumb-Twiddler
1. New Years resolutions: worthwhile modifier of personal behavior, or fruitless way to set yourself up for failure?
fruitless endeavors for fruitbats. i'm sure for some, this comes as an appropriate line in the sand for resolving to do things you've meant or wanted to do. me, not so much.
2. What should you have resolved for the New Year? Not what you did resolve, mind you, but what should you have resolved?
oh, probably to be kinder to children and old ladies crossing the street, to swear less and call my grandmother more, and to really use that gym membership. see what i mean? these are things that really shouldn't take a secular holiday for prompting.
3. You're suddenly able to send a brief message back to yourself on 1 January 2002. What would you say?
you have a great year ahead of you, dear. hang in thru the rough bits, because it will all be worth it in the end.
1:33 PM ...
i read anil's thoughts on privacy and identity
a while back.
what with the holiday rush, it was a bit much to absorb just then. but the ideas that he put out there stuck with me, so today i went and hunted down the article again.
a few quotes:
We're all celebrities now, in a sense. Everything that we say or do is on the record.
What do we do until people are used to seeking out context, until meta is intrinsic? Well, you have to own your name.
I own my name. I am the first, and definitive, source of information on me.
it's worth going and reading everything anil has to say. i'm still working on digesting it, but it hooks nicely into a few other things i've been contemplating lately. for example, blogdex
is a nifty little engine out of MIT that rates stories based on the number of unique citations. so it a particular story catches the eye of one blogger, and they tell two friends and so on, the original source is highly rated over at blogdex. and i find myself browsing thru blogdex to see what's news today.
not what's new, but what's news.
think about that. i'm sure i'm not the only one who does this, looking around to see what other people are paying attention to today. and not just other people, but a self selecting group of bloggers and journallers, who, more and more, are the ones who help determine what is news.
as i said, still digesting, still cogitating. there are some very powerful things going on in this little virtual world of ours, and it's fascinating to me to watch it grow and change.
11:47 AM ...
oh, see... this is what i get for not keeping up on my reading.
where was anil's gift suggestion list
when i really needed it? ;)
11:13 AM ...
Wednesday, January 1, 2003
happy New Year, everyone. (she said quietly, for those nursing their festivities today.)
me, i was lucky enough to have the nicest New Year's in memory. no real plans, lots of options to choose from, a very mellow and free form evening, lovely dinner out with my sweetie (and a brief moment of panic trying to dress well), driving around to see some truly over the top Christmas lights, caught up oh so briefly with Chica, and was home by midnight to toast the changes with sparkling cider in juice glasses.
all in all, it was a good night. :) hope you had a chance to spend your evening how and with whom you wanted, as well.
1:06 PM ...
Tuesday, December 31, 2002
last This or That
for the year, first one at its new home.
1. Stay in or go out on New Year's Eve?
go out. i get a little nutty, climbing the walls, if i don't go out for some part of the evening. doesn't have to be a full bore, paint the town red kind of thing (altho i've done that too), but it's good to go to some of the regular haunts to say hi to friends.
2. If you stay home, do you stay up to ring in the new year, or fall asleep earlier?
i'm a night owl by nature anyway. so even if i'm home, i'm up to ring in the New Year, at least in this time zone.
3. If you go out, do you prefer to attend a party at someone's home, or go to a bar/nightclub/restaurant?
a couple of my regular haunts feel like home, so it's a bit of a combination. *thinking* can't remember... oh, wait. yes, i can. did the New Year's thing a few years at the ex bf's house. feh. this year, it's either out at a regular dig, or home, at my place.
4. Make resolutions, or do you not bother?
can't be bothered. not on New Year's, anyway. i'll make my resolutions when i'm damn good and ready, thankyouverymuch.
5. Ever been to Times Square (New York City) on New Year's Eve, or just watched the ball drop on TV?
i have been to Times Square, but not on the big night. i've watched the ball drop a few times. really, i only watch to see how the Dorian Grey deal is going for Dick Clark.
6. Toast the New Year with champagne or a soft drink?
neither. after having done champagne a few times, i found that champagne does me. killer headache about 20 minutes after imbibing. so i do toast the New Year by getting toasty with some sort of cocktail. just not the bubbly stuff.
7. Do you have a special New Year's dinner or not?
as in traditional? nope. i've done the dinner and dancing route a few times, but nothing like 'must have roast beast'. i am starting a new tradition this year, tho, with New Year's Day dinner. i like the southern tradition of Hoppin' John, collard greens and cornbread. so, southern girl that i'm not, that's what we'll be having January 1, along with some ham.
8. Do you already have your 2003 calendar, or do you wait to buy one until the stores mark them down?
i have one, given to me as a gift by the Cap'n. usually, i try to pick them up before the end of the year, but this year the time just got away from me. one for the desk at work, one for the kitchen. maybe i'll poke around in a few days to see what i can come up with.
9. Take down Christmas decorations: before or after New Year's?
after. on 12th Night, or Feast of the Three Kings. seems about right.
10. Funny hats and noisemakers, or a quieter celebration?
funny hats, for sure. i actually stopped and bought a bunch from a street vendor last year on my way to work; since we were all working the First Night event, i figured the least i could do was bring some festive headgear. ;)
um... as i get older, i find that the noisemakers and party hats are less and less appealing. eventually, i figure i'll be one of those toast with gingerale and go to bed by 9 or 10 sort of people. i give myself about 5 years. ;)
11:41 AM ...
Monday, December 30, 2002
oddly, 170 Milk Street is not opposite 171 Milk Street.
this made it all the more challenging to find my insurance agent's office. thought i was home free when i found 171, turned out i was wrong. opposite 171? a blank wall. 170, it turns out, is two blocks away.
6:25 PM ...
oh, because, you know, i'm a sucker for Trading Spaces
take the which one of the trading spaces cast are you? quiz!
6:23 PM ...