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Saturday, September 11, 2004

meditation for the day:

There is hope in [people], not in society, not in systems, not in organized religious systems, but in you and in me.

- J. Krishnamurti


:: scribbled at 9:32 PM ... ... o



Wednesday, September 8, 2004

mmmph.

yeah, that's about where my articulation level is right now. also, par for the last few weeks.

it's been interesting since we got back from vacation. ~deep breath~ i got a great taste, that week at the cottage, of what it is like to be a family, one unit, without competing forces.

since we've gotten back, i feel like we've been hip deep. hip deep in ex wife, in new school, in new after care, in new patterns and ideas for all of us.

some of it is good and lovely. Little Small seems to have taken to his first day of school just swimmingly. ;) and he's fairly adaptable. (i nearly said infinitely, as he seems more flexible than me some days, but he also has his breaking points.) and he reached out to hug me several times today, for no reason. i love that kid.

and some of it... feh. dealing with someone who cares mostly about her public image, who lies like it's breathing... *shakes head* i don't have the energy for that kind of drama. and i'm working on finding a way to separate myself enough to not be affected, but stay connected enough to be able to get the info i need to care about the two guys i care about.

bleargh.

(can i go back to the beach now? please? huh? canniwannaplease?)

if you had told me 5 years ago that my life would revolve around Legos, glue sticks and string cheese, you could have knocked me over with a feather. you still might be able to. :)



:: scribbled at 10:25 PM ... ... o



Sunday, September 5, 2004

unconscious mutterings:

  1. Reporter:: blank
  2. Mythology:: Daedelus
  3. Wimbledon:: whites
  4. Civilization:: overarching
  5. Punctuation:: game
  6. Party Games:: bullshit politics
  7. Flawless:: ivory
  8. Unprecedented:: eventual
  9. Curry:: favor
  10. Tropical:: hurricane


:: scribbled at 9:33 AM ... ... o



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